The realizations

I’ve discovered that if I get a little high, I can figure out a whole bunch of things for myself.

Like last night, for example. I realized that I was actually in love with my former best friend.

I think she had to know that, which makes it feel even worse how little she cares about me. She was always extremely clear that she didn’t have feelings “like that” for me, so she certainly didn’t lead me on.

Instead I think she knew full well how much I loved her and she took advantage of that. I actually think that’s much worse.

But at least now I know why I had such a hard time getting over her.