Sorta finding peace

I’m still struggling with the wave of grief that hit me on the weekend. It hasn’t remotely gone away yet.

But I guess I’m feeling a little bit less freaked out about money. Dyl applied for a job last night and Chloe has a connection for another job that pays very well through my friend that I helped financially.

She says she’s going to apply and knows that it has to be by tomorrow, so I really hope that she will. I’m kinda a little nervous about her because she gets defeated so easily and also tends to procrastinate too much.

But she knows that I am freaking out and she really wants to help me, so I have to take her at her word and try to trust her.

I’m trying to exist on faith in the good right now and for some reason, that’s really hard for me. I know that I have built up good karma and I won’t fail…but it still took every effort to avoid adding the word “probably” to that last sentence.