And yet another day

It was a relatively good day, all things considered. I still feel weird saying that I have a relatively good day while J’s on chemo.

Today, I had a big moment of gratitude for my life. I noticed that I also had a similar experience during the last time J was on chemo, too. I wonder if these breakthrough moments of gratitude are becoming a sort of new way that I’m coping with the uncertainty and fear that also comes along with him being on chemo. It would be interesting if that’s the case.

Amy is still looking at apartments and is having some trouble finding them; apparently, the chaos of our local housing market also extends to apartments. I’ve heard similar things from others as well, so I hope she will find something soon.

At the same time, I also don’t, for all the reasons I mentioned in my last post. But at least she said she’ll allow me to help her get stuff to furnish her new place once she has a move-in date. That may not seem like that big of a deal but it is to me, especially because I have to ask her permission before buying her anything (and she usually says no.)

I was browsing around on Amazon earlier (ugh) and I bought a book. It already sounded interesting to me but what sold me on it was that Kirk Hammett (yes, the guy from Metallica) gave it a negative review. Maybe that makes me exceptionally immature. In fact, it probably does. But based on what I know of him, I really don’t like him, so if he criticizes a book, I’ll probably like it.

I don’t really have much else to say. I’m still considering trying to become a therapist but I didn’t look into alternative forms of doing my externships yet. I probably won’t be going this fall anyway. Or maybe I could if I got my shit together. But honestly that just sounds kinda hard for right now.