It just occurred to me while I was out running some quick errands that this is the rest of my life. My future is wide open. I’ll have a modest income between disability, freelancing, and eventually, survivor benefits.
What do I want to do with the rest of my life, considering those factors? I’ll be somewhat limited by my disability, of course. I’ll never be able to have a full-time career, most likely. And sadly, I will neither have someone to take care of me nor will I always have someone to enjoy the time with me.
But what I will have is relative freedom for the rest of my life. Now I just have to decide how I want to use it. What I do know is that I don’t want to waste this opportunity. Maybe I’ll foster kittens or write books or travel to Ireland or all of the above. Knowing that I’ll have this degree of freedom is both exhilarating and terrifying.